Trying to start over again is not going as planned although not really sure there was a plan to begin with. I feel physically ill all the time, my heart hurts really hurts I don't think I have ever ached for someone before. I had no idea I could love someone like this much less how to move on, I don't know if I will. I want to hop the next plane back to Annapolis just to have him hold me, however knowing that he cares and loves me has to be enough for now. I wish a million things right now. Anyways, How do I tell someone else that I can't move on with out hurting them as well. I want everyone to be happy and in the end no one will be happy. I wish it was 5 years from now, I wish I could go back 5 years as well knowing what I know now. Things would be so VERY different!
Sadness, heartache and loneliness are my companions.
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