Wondering

So as I sit here getting ready to go get my kids from the ex, I am amazed at how much life has changed and how it is still going to change in the next few weeks and months. 9 months ago I was a struggling single mom, work, college and had just gotten out of yet another "relationship" (Can you call 5 dates a relationship?) anyways a chance meeting and I meet this person who changes my life forever, luck, fate or what? I thought I had my world figured out and now it's so very different. Many airplane trips for a chance to love again, a chance to open my heart up, It's too great a risk my mind keeps telling me, then the realization that I am in love, to scared to say it, I don't I attempt to run away that doesn't work either. He says it first. Can it possibly be true? Can he really love me? My heart hopes so but my mind tells me nope your broken always have been your not worth the love, again and still somedays I try to push it away but he keeps saying it, I love you, I love you. I love him too. That very thing love is so worth the changes in my life. Scared yes a little but not of what everyone thinks, I'm scared to take a chance and be the change I want to be. I am not scared of love, for loving someone is trusting them and giving them the chance to hurt you and having the faith that they won't.